On the Real

What a difference four months makes. Feeling like I'm on a roller coaster ride. Or maybe I feel like i'm at an amusement park. Riding multiple roller coasters. Whatever the case may be life is taking me on a ride. I don't have much time these days to sit and write as much as I like, but I'm going to try to get better. I'm glad to be doing to this morning. When I write it gives me time to reflect  and contemplate. I'm reflecting on time and contemplating my next move. God has definitely been sustaining me from each transition, and I'm praying His continued guidance even now.

Encourage Yourself

Sometimes you have to encourage yourself...because you're all you've got. I'm going through some emotions right now and it's hard to process them fully, so it's mostly manifested itself into fear and anxiety. I developed some coping strategies, but they're not working like they use to, so back to the drawing board. Tonight was getting particularly hard until I started reading some of my past posts. Praying for peace today as I  focus on what's ahead.

On the Real

Yes! It's been a while. Maybe too long, I can't tell these days. Life is going at an amazingly fast-paced humdrum speed and I love it. Well most days I do, some days I long for some more, but I'm very thankful for what I have. Life is busy with a toddler, who's on the move, and way too smart for her own good (at least she gets it honestly). Being a stay at home mom is so many things…i'll explain more later. It's bed time, later!

Happy New Year

At the end of every year we all take stock of what we've done, and note how much better we're going to do. Somewhere between January 1st and December 31st those goals, hopes and dreams get lost. This is of no fault of ours or those around us, life just happens. Things come up, new priorities become important.

This year, like with most holidays, I wanted to go out to eat to celebrate. But Mr. Moneybags said we had already spent too much on eating out that month, so we stayed home and ate. Which was fine, I guess, since we had quite a bit of leftovers. As I threw stuff together from random other meals to create a new one I had a novel idea. This is what the new year, at least mine, should be about. I already have most of the tools and things I need to do everything I want to do. Using what I have to create better situations and circumstances that are less than desired. Life doesn't end and begin again at beginning of a year. And thank goodness for that, I've learned to much over the years. Relearning all that would take forever. But reality is old problems and habits don't go away because it's a new year.

So I've decided to treat this new year for what it is...a continuation. I'll continue to try to improve what the Lord has blessed me with.

Day 6 - Standing in the gap

"For he shall have judgment without mercy, that hath shewed no mercy; and mercy rejoiceth against judgment." James 4:2

The promise is slightly hidden in this verse until the end "...mercy rejoiceth against judgement." When I first read this verse it seemed depressing especially given my challenge I was on, to seek out God's promises. Yet, this verse kept on showing up. And only five days later do I get it.

In college sometimes the frivolity of youth leave you less than prepared. Lol. Studying doesn't seem as important until the test is upon you. In those times I found myself praying for the teacher's mercy...and a grade on a curve. I think I learned the most about grading on a curve during calculus. Most times the teacher takes the high grade and makes that an A. What a glorious concept! What a saving grace! This helps fill in the gaps you might have missed. This helped me get a B on calculus.

Grading on a curve helps me understand this verse the best. Yes, you will be judged, which is already a scary concept. You have God's mercy filling in the gaps. God's mercy makes salvation attainable. Now that's a promise!

Day 2 - God's Plan

 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord…" Jeremiah 29:11-14a

I have no idea what god's plans are, and the more I think about, it's probably better that way. I already vacillate over what I think i can and can not handle. i think back over situations I thought I would never get through, and realize that I have not only made it, but I have thrived. and i know it's nothing more than God's grace and mercy. 

Day 1 - God meant for Good...

"But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive." Genesis 50:20

Trusting that God is taking you through things for good can be a hard and painful experience. When you're in the midst of it, everything seems hopeless. It's hard to see any good, let alone God working on your behalf. Case and point….Ebola. My dear husband is tired of me talking about it. I've been feverishly reading everything about Ebola, and driving myself insane. I was angry at people bringing the Ebola virus over here. Those who came for treatment and those who just ended up here. I was mad that I had to think about it every second of every day (totally my choice). But today  I noticed a trend the people who are overcoming the disease are able to donate plasma. Since they are now producing antibodies they are able to help those with their same blood type. And research for Ebola has stepped up. They are talking mass vaccines within a month or so. Who knows how long this would have taken had it not been for it coming to America. And honestly as terrified as I am about it, maybe it was meant for good.