It’s been too long!! I had an idea of what I wanted to write, but I just read one of old blogs and was so blessed (http://findingcontentment.blogspot.com/2012/03/testimony-time-nothing-comes-from.html ). I struggle with my surrender to God, I know he’s got my best interest at heart. It’s the fear of the unknown. It’s my doubt that He’ll really do what is best. And sometimes that it will be too hard. Sometimes you have to step on faith. I’m in the middle of one of those waiting periods, and as nerve-wrecking as it I know God will work it out. The reality is it may not come when you want it, but it’ll be there right on time. It’s the time after I have cried, moaned and ultimately surrended that the Lord truly surprises me and shows up and shows out. And that is time is truly near...and this time I want to do better, so here’s my prayer:
Lord,
I struggle with complete surrender. I know that you’ve done so much, and when I look back, you haven’t failed me yet. My mortal being, and fallible human mental capacity, are unable to understand and comprehend your plan for my life. But I know they are GREAT...I have a vision, but I know yours is better. You are well aware of my wants and desires and do not want to hold those back from me. Sometimes I need help believing this when you don’t answer as fast as I want you too or in the way I think you should, forgive me for this. Thank you for the blessings you have maintained in my life, my health, my strength, food, clothing, shelter, my marriage, my friendships, my job, to name a few. Thank you for the blessings that are too come (those known and unknown…yes I’m claiming it!). Thank you for the peace that you are working on my behalf and for my good through the good and bad. I give you all the praise and honor and just in case you don’t know I love you! Amen!!
