A lesson learned the hard way...is a lesson learned

Since I have been out here in what I call my "wilderness experience" my mind has started to wonder. I have realized some things that I probably would have not seen if I have been well...comfortable.

You think that you are satisfied with all that you have until you find something else you want. The best things that happen in your life happen when you are not paying attention. The most important thing I can get anything out of the trials and tribulations of life are the lessons. While I was busy living...life has been going on...and I have gotten wiser. Crying doesn't make the problem go away but it sure makes you feel better and releases some tension inside. Silence is golden. And when silence is just not enough you can say always say it with music. If you love someone eventually they will find out (you determine how soon or how late they found out). If you close your eyes and let your mind wonder...you can dream up anything. Pretty soon you will have to follow your own advice. Trying to avoid the inevitable is more trouble then you probably have time for ("to thine own self be...honest"). Forgiveness is key. The Lord gives you ways out...take yours today. If strangers can see it...then there is not much more proof you need. There is always a reason that people are placed in you life...it's at the rarest times you find out why.

What lessons have you learned the hard way?

Lots of Love

I miss you all so much. :'(

But I send lots of love. =)

Black and White...and shades of grey

Everything is not black and white.
They are large areas of grey.
Beware of the grey areas!!!

Unfinished Blogs

So you have an idea expect you don't know how to express exactly what you want to say. Well these are a few blogs that I started and just never finished. I thought I should mash them together make them one big blog of unfinished thoughts. Feel free to finish them yourself.

Passion...
What exactly is it? It’s your obsession. Do you have a passion for...fashion? Could it be fashion or cooking? It’s what makes you smile, it’s what you love. You don't have to be the best at your passion or know the most about it. It might even be something that just recently learned you love. It's important to you. Yous always willing to learn more about it. You don't care what else it keeps you from...you want it.

Right now I have a passion for life. I want to live it to the fullest. I never thought of myself as spontaneous but it seems now I want to do more and more. I want to make sure that I have not...

Self Renewal
Every year I pick a theme for that particular year. Well this year the theme is renewal. When I first thought of the word I wasn’t exactly sure why I picked it but now I think I know why. Self renewal is important… I feel like there is no time like the present to renew yourself. How? By looking on the inside. So many times we are quick to blame others for our shortcomings. I have learned that if I don’t define who I am for myself then others will do it for me. But if I have to...

Who’s to blame?
Okay let’s play the blame game. It is your fault because it can’t be my fault maybe it’s her fault or his fault. Why is it we find it so hard to admit our downfalls and shortcomings? Why is it so hard to face up to the fact that it just might be your fault?

Taking a stand…or leaving it to chance
What do you do when you have done all you can? How can you make a difference in a situation when you feel insignificant? There are times in life when you MUST take a stand. You take a stand or else you leave everything to chance. By saying nothing you have said everything. Ignoring something, thinking that it will go away does not get rid of the problems; problems need to be faced head on. So what is best way to take a stand?

Guess what my fortune cookie said today?
Investigate new possbilities with friends. Now is the time!
[Hint, hint (nudge, nudge)]
So friends let the new possibilities roll... ;-D

Where is Jailyn now...Dothan, AL.

Okay well I was going to do a tribute to my favorite group of all time but I need more time. So you have to settle for my babble.

Let's see saturday night we went to go see The Breakup with Jennifer Anniston and Vince Vaughn (which I think is like the white version of Two can Play that Game). Basically it is the art of game-playing which men and women play daily with each other in and out of realtionships. I thought it was funny which was a good thing. The ending is unpredictable but very ironic.

Well today I was feeling kinda of sick so I didn't really want to get out bed but I forced myself up and out after midafternoon. Anyway we went back to pensacola beach to hang out. We went bungee trampoline jumping (guess I can cross that off "my list" of things to do). Then we did a little shopping. Played a little air hockey (I won't tell you who won). So it was actually a nice end to our time in Pensacola.

Next stop Panama City, FL. See you there.

Change is Good

Change is good. I went to the beauty shop today and resisted the urge to cut my hair (just kidding). Anyway I love beauty shop banter. It's so funny, we are a funny race. Anyway I just wanted to do something different so there it is. Well I went there with a picture (I wanted more blond but I will get it before the school year) and the beautican did her own thing but whatever it's okay. I didn't ask for a miracle which is what some people do... So new things, I guess we'll se what comes next.

I'm smiling...

and I must say, it feels good =D! I hope this smile is contagious.

What a difference a day makes

What a difference a day makes... Ever wondered what would have happened if you said that differently or if you had done that differently? The slightest adjustment could have made a world of difference. Ever wanted to get a "do over"? Perhaps you wanted to make a better first impression...or maybe you just wanted to change the outfit you wore. A day, 24 hours, 1440 mins can make a world of difference. Doesn't seem like a long time does it? Well consider this... the child that was just born, the couple that just got engaged, or the person who just recieved the organ off the donor list. To all of them one day made a huge difference. Ask them if they would have changed anything about that day. What changes an ordinary day to an extraordinary day? Is it in what you say or how you act? Could it be the way you dress or the hairstyle you wear? I don't know, could be. Whatever the case maybe know this a day makes a big difference. Ask the person who just realized they fell in love or the person who won the lottery...what difference a day makes.


So what difference does a day make? A HUGE one. Make today an EXTRAordinary day! ;-)

Committment

While watching Cake for the second time I realized that while no one wants to be alone we are all a bit fearful of committment. Of course some of us are not necessarily ready for marriage right now. That is fine but is our fear of the unknown what scares us the most? Perhaps. But can the one thing that our heart uses as a defense hinder us from what we truly want? Being too cautious is almost as dangerous as being to open. On my path to self discovery (which is more like finding the exact path the Lord wants me to be on) I have realized when I stand up to the things I fear the most that when the sense of accomplishment is the strongest. I never thought of myself as scared of marriage but we learn new things everyday. I am not scared of marriage or anything but while watching the movie I have realized there are some issues that I need to overcome. I am ready to love...but am I ready to be loved?

PS So I made a list of things I wanted to accomplish during the summer. Well one thing was to write a play so I have started. The play is called Hopelessly Devoted: then act like it. It's coming along pretty good so far.

PPS I'm in Pensacola, Flordia (I get to go to the beach tommorrow, hopefully)